I was born with a very severe case of club feet. I had surgeries for my feet at about 2-4 months of being born. Since I was a child, I always knew that something wasn’t quite right. I am currently a sophomore in highschool. I do marching band and orchestra as I have a passion for music. But I can never seem to let it go. I’ve heard it all.” She walks like a penguin.” “She limps really weird.” “Stephanie? The one who walks weird?” I’ve heard this throughout my entire life.
As a child, I always wanted to do ballet. I always wanted the stage to myself and dance my heart out. There are times when I see the guard dancing wishing that could be me. I’ve always had the mindset that if I can’t prove myself physically, I’ll prove myself musically and academically. My case links up to my arthritis, heart dilation, asthma, scoliosis, and other things that make my body ache everyday. I’ve always said that this body isn’t mine. I am capable of doing so much more. I can do so much more but not in this body. Years have gone by, and many more are going to go by until the day I die having lived in a cage. Even though there’s so much more I can accomplish that doesn’t involve physical activity, I still touch the body that can never be mine.